I am so frustrated right now. I’m frustrated even more because I am so frustrated. it’s an endless circle of frustration and its not good.
My health has been a bit questionable of late. A good friend has been concerned for me, as I am sure others have as well. However this friend’s advice, wisdom, nudges have been extremely helpful to me. I value this friends words, concern so greatly, and yet right now that concern is frustrating me, because it is pushing this friend to push me not to do things which I feel I should be doing, and that by me not doing is placing a burden on others that I don’t want to place upon them. I can’t stand it. I understand that I need to take care of myself, that if I don’t it negatively affects both me and those around me. However at the same time, how is it beneficial for me to take time to rest when I am still in a place where I can function, can do what I am suppose to do, even if not feeling 100%, and as a result cause another, who is already worked enough, to step in for me? Does this not lead to a potential negative impact upon them? And if so is it better for just one to be down than two or three?
I’m going to have to talk with my friend in the morning. I’m sure my friend is not going to be happy with my thoughts, who will probably disagree with me, and maybe (okay probably) is right, but none the less if I don’t express my frustration and concern this frustration is going to eat at me to much, and that is not healthy.
Peace,
— Lyle II