“New light is dawning” interesting words perhaps to title a post being written at 11pm. Yet, those are the words that inspire this post, sum up this post, can call it forth. So no other words can suffice.
The past few days have been a time of awakening, a time of struggle, and a time of growth. perhaps in part reflecting the slightly larger struggle I have been engaging in for a while now. On Thursday, I the great procrastinator wrote in entirety a paper not due until the 14th. Then on Friday wrote another that was not due until 5pm today, and to which I had received an extension incase I was unable to get it done by today. Today I started work, and am currently taking a short break, upon the third paper I am writing before it is due. If all goes well, I will have it finished tomorrow and turned in, though it is not due until the 13th. Will his become a habit? I surely hope in part it will, and in part I hope it won’t.
But that is not the new light that is dawning, or at least not the majority of it. (Should it be new day not new light, hmm). Rather it is an awakening. A becoming more aware of that which is around me, how it interacts and impacts one another, including myself. I have encountered amazing gifts of ministry in others. Sunday’s worship service was powerful and amazing to me, it brought me to tears both of joy and sorrow and many other feelings. Which in point I tried to hold back, for I was up front for all to see, but hold them back I could not do. I have also found in much of my reflecting, and writing that poetic voice of old coming forth, perhaps at times hampering the academic voice which is needed. But I am an evolving changing person, finding myself an introverted mystic in need of and seeking out community. seeking to help community grow in understanding how to be, seeking to help foster relationship, heal and mend it. Taking time to be still and “know that God is God” to take that time and be still with the great I Am in burning bush, and helping others see that as well. Seeking, hoping to rejuvenate the telling of the sacred story to ensure I do so with great love and sincerity and with honesty, generosity, and openness.
Las night I sat and pondered and reflected after spending time with a friend. When he asked me what kind of mood I was in, in reference to choosing a movie, I paused thought and said “at peace with the world” which he replied along the lines of “are you ever not?” The answer is yes, though often I am at peace, and often even when not my outward expression is that of that peace. it reminded me also of words spoken by a friend I have shared several classes with as he stated the gift I had given him a week ago tomorrow.
Now today as I write this post, all I can say, is “new light is dawning” and “the future is approaching” I am in an odd sense of peace, and ready for the adventures ahead. Ready to start seeking out employment opportunities, ready to travel to the Congo, ready to share the sacred story in new and old ways, ready to step outside my boundaries to help engage and foster a community of peace and justice expressed in many ways around the globe. To share with sister and brother in every continent and isle of the sea. To help us grow and become that which we are meant to be.
So let us grasp onto that grace which abound, and step forward in faith to help bring about positive change of healing and growth in a distressed and broken world.
Peace be with you,
— Lyle II