After all I have gone through, after all I have supposedly learned, I somehow still forget or at least struggle with taking “Sabbath.” This summer I have found myself often coming into work on my days off and finding something to do work wise for at least part of the day. I have also rarely taken my full lunch break, often not even half of it before returning to work. I have a hard time saying, “NO, I need to rest,” especially to myself. I would think after being forced to take a year of rest I would have learned, but yet I see myself falling into the habit of forgetting the needed “me” time. Perhaps it is difficult as I enjoy my work, I work with my friends who are in many ways my family. Perhaps it is because some of my work doesn’t even feel like “work”. I really don’t know. What I do know however is if I do not ensure I take time to rest, it will eventually be detrimental to both myself and to the work that I do am and that which I am called to do.
I know my struggle will be even greater this coming school year. For in the fall I have no 24 hour period to take as a time of personal Sabbath. I will be driving to school Monday mornings, classes in the afternoon and evening, classes in the afternoons on Tuesdays and every other week in the evening, and Wednesday morning then drive back to Kirtland. Thursday through Sunday I will find myself working at the Temple and with the MC. Somewhere in there I will need to ensure I take time out to rest, to grow and allow myself to be refilled and restored, for if I do not how can I work in, with, and through community toward the restoration of creation?
Well I’m of to try and relax rather than work as I’m off until 1pm CDT today.
Peace,
— Lyle II